I can feel the tar baby around me feeding off my negative energy. Poet Joy Harjo said the best thing to do combat that energy is just to ignore it.
So rather than sit here and entertain those creepy thoughts, my back up plan is to reinforce my brain waves with positive vibes, such as the things I'm grateful for in life:
I Am Thankful
by Charlie Ballard
I am thankful that I can still love.
I am thankful for the hidden blessings in life because if we all got everything we wanted than how would we ever learn from our mistakes?
I am thankful for IHS *Indian Health Service* , accessible healthcare for Native Americans is da shit!
I am thankful for the sacrifice of our ancestors.
I am thankful for all the men who've ever said no to me because thats one less STD for me to worry about.
I am thankful for having the willingness, compassion, & desire to want more out of life and not ever be complacent.
I am thankful for Adele's music, that lady can write and sing.
I am thankful that I made it to age 40 without having a heart attack.
I am thankful that I've been able to see my classmates do well in life.
I am thankful that I was asked to be the lead in an independent movie.